Haha ok so I know what you are thinking...let me tell you what the heck is going on. I was homeless about 1 month ago..a weird chain of events led to me finding my current roommate/landlord who is also my friend. He has provided shelter and so much for me...although I am positive he is a genuine guy, I know my smile and big boobs help.
I am not one to use people, but here is my dilemma...calm down you guys, yes the plot thickens. I know how much "Joe Blow" likes me and unfortunately I have actually been sleeping with another male roommate in the house whom is also a very good friend of all of ours. Hmmm "Joe Blow" # 2 is actually quite the gentleman and charmer and I must say that I am totally into him. We don't always have sex...sometime we just lie in his bed cuddling and talking...I know totally mushy, even I am like Get The Fuck...(Oh just so you know Get The Fuck is an expression I use when words cannot express what I feel). So anyhow, I am afraid that Joe Blow #1, the one who took me in will be crushed and not really be happy if he found out that his tenant is getting it on with me while he sleeps...
Hmm yeah so that's kind of what my thing is...oh wait I have so stupidly forgotten to tell you that I am not paying rent right now because I am truly trying to find work...I am at the bottom of the barrel. Now, don't get me wrong I am no mooch, I clean the house and there are 6 people total living here! Ha so calm down and don't think this is a freebie...but I don't want to mess up a good thing that I have, 'cause Lord know I don't have a leg to stand on and I need his help...but I like the other roommate and he is falling for me and I just don't know how much longer I can keep his under wraps.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
He was married with 2 kids and a dog...
It now has almost been 2 weeks since I have spoken a single word to him...I just completely stopped cold turkey. I finally got so tired of it... can anyone even understand that kind of sickness you feel once you've found out you were the "other woman". I have almost become obsessed though; with his life, his kids, his wife and even his dog has become an attractable target of wonderment.
I think that his life is so perfect. He is a police officer in the prime of his life, he has the house, the wife, the cars and everything else you'd include in an "American Dream". I am jealous that he travels the way he does and I must say that Freud knew what the hell he was talking about because my "penis envy" has consumed me.
I am so jealous that he can go travel the way he does and he is so outgoing (not that I am not) and he just has this aura about him that radiates and you can't help but be attracted. He is tall dark and handsome and I am so jealous. I am obsessed. I drive by his house to get a glimpse of his life...but I am also afraid of what I might see... his beautiful wife, beautiful kids, and the dog with a shiny coat.
I am in a state of confusion and I hate this feeling of infatuation. I want to be him...and live his life. He can do anything he wants. Oh and btw, he is incredibly good at everything he does...I witnessed some pretty amazing activities.
Why the hell does he have to be so good!!! At everything? He can sleep with whatever woman he wants and he has class and charm...I have developed a theory on this...
He cheats on his wife and kids with many girls. He even claims that he is in love with me. However, his SuperCop and SuperAthelete status is all a facade. He feels that he must be superior at everything else to compensate for his lack of fidelity.
Now this is no bullshit, this is fact. He feels so guilty so he must put on this facade of being a genuine, wholseome person when in reality he is leading double and triple lives. I truly know he hurts deep down inside. Why did he marry her? Does he still love her? Will he leave her when the kids are grown? Will she leave him when she finds out that her vagina is not his empire anymore?
I think that his life is so perfect. He is a police officer in the prime of his life, he has the house, the wife, the cars and everything else you'd include in an "American Dream". I am jealous that he travels the way he does and I must say that Freud knew what the hell he was talking about because my "penis envy" has consumed me.
I am so jealous that he can go travel the way he does and he is so outgoing (not that I am not) and he just has this aura about him that radiates and you can't help but be attracted. He is tall dark and handsome and I am so jealous. I am obsessed. I drive by his house to get a glimpse of his life...but I am also afraid of what I might see... his beautiful wife, beautiful kids, and the dog with a shiny coat.
I am in a state of confusion and I hate this feeling of infatuation. I want to be him...and live his life. He can do anything he wants. Oh and btw, he is incredibly good at everything he does...I witnessed some pretty amazing activities.
Why the hell does he have to be so good!!! At everything? He can sleep with whatever woman he wants and he has class and charm...I have developed a theory on this...
He cheats on his wife and kids with many girls. He even claims that he is in love with me. However, his SuperCop and SuperAthelete status is all a facade. He feels that he must be superior at everything else to compensate for his lack of fidelity.
Now this is no bullshit, this is fact. He feels so guilty so he must put on this facade of being a genuine, wholseome person when in reality he is leading double and triple lives. I truly know he hurts deep down inside. Why did he marry her? Does he still love her? Will he leave her when the kids are grown? Will she leave him when she finds out that her vagina is not his empire anymore?
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